...still at the pt of writin this blog im not sure wat prompted me to make a weird decision like dis but i liked the whole idea of leaving one of my favourite pastimes...i donno how far i can succeed in dis but this is extremely fascinating.....i regard dis one as the greatest tests of my life n im sure it'll require every ounce of my will power or may be a bit more than wat i actually have to make dis one a worthy decision....in any case im determined not to loose dis time....
im not goin into da details of dis decision as i have no intention to get into dat really n i guess it really doesn't matter much....im jus writin dis coz i cannot contain myself wid dis and i need to put it somewer and also to hav a better picture of my feelings wen dis decision was taken.....also after the end of the stipulated time period i wish to note the changes dat would be brought about in me......
i have not discussed dis wid anyone of my friends or well wishers...coz i really dint feel the need to... some of the guys readin dis may even feel dat im jus givin dis one a bit more drama than wat was required but i really cant help it....i still dont think dat dis decision would make me feel better and less guilty abt da way things hav gone dese days..but then again i feel dat dis is certainly worth givin a try...n moreover it doesnt involve anyone directly or indirectly so i dont hav to get permits from anyone...so im free to do dis n if it succeeds in making me feel less guilty..dat would be the best thing to happen to me...n i sincerely hope for dat to happen....n if it doesnt work i dont think i hav much to loose given the benefits which ill get if dis succeeds......
....wen my friend told abt dis idea for the first time i burst out laughing and told him dat no sane man in dis world would do dis.....but now i feel dat may be he has a point to make and here iam....set out to explore if dis works....well i guess der wont be much loss incurred in dis one so i cant see many obstacles for dis and started right away....so in da coming days ill know if it is possible to get better of ur guilty conscience with such an easy task.....given the task im upto and the purpose of it...it may be called as an easy task.....
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